what if the things that are most important to you have never really been true? what if one day you wake up realizing that you're entire existance has been at fault, every thing you stood for, every day you've ever faughten for... what if it didn't matter. i say heart of matter, but in actuality its the brain of matter. hearts only beat, they do not produce feelings or the sense of right or wrong. when things occur that you arent expecting what do you do? do you run if they are bad? or do you stay? do you comprimise to recieve the things you want? or do you simply leave and move on. only it isnt that simple, going through everything you've gone though, and than just leave? heart that matters now, does your heart matter in the situations that have occured? has your importance considered your heart? and did it matter? in such a case i have faced the answer is no. i am a highschool student and i know i am young and so is he. but we have been dating what i thought to be solid for 2 years, yet he has been sleeping with another girl the entire time.. well not the entire time but 3 times and at crtical moments in our relationship. what i've come to realize last night is that i need to trust my heart more. what pops in my head first only it isnt that easy... and i dont know why i mean it should be i should be able to leave him but i gave up pretty much my whole life for him and now im stuck either with him, or without him and niether sound good to me.
my complaints for now....
blog back later
Juno
